So this was supposed to get posted a few weeks ago but hey, better late than never right?
I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you.”
Psalm 16:2
This is among one of my favorite Bible verses for many reasons. It convicts me, humbles me, reminds me, and comforts me.
I’ve always taken great pride in one certain aspect of my personality: being a rational thinker. Even though I like to let me head wander above the clouds now and again, I always keep my feet on the ground and my mind focused. This sort of thinking has become ingrained since childhood and in fact people have often said that I think too old for my age and that I should live in the moment, embrace the present life, and choose passion over planning. While I wouldn’t call myself a totally emotionless stone, I definitely admit that I am the type to choose logic over feeling.
I was blessed to grow up in a Christian household so the ideas of the God, sin, and salvation were nothing new to me. The way I had it figured, God and sin cannot be together so in order to be with God, all one had to do was avoid sin, right? Pragmatism and practicality served me well in this regard and for a long while, I had everyone fooled (including myself) into thinking that I had everything in control, that I was truly a good person, that I could do it all on my own. For years, I did not fully understand the beauty and necessity of Jesus’ death on the cross. Why would such a great God care to save the soul of such a wayward heart like mine? Why would I need saving anyways?
In spite of my stubborn heart, over time, God revealed to me bit by bit the nature of sin and true depravity of my being, my deceit and my hopeless attempts at balancing the field between God and me…but in His loving-kindness, He simultaneously showed me the endless depths of His grace and mercy. There is no work or non-work I can do that will amount to the saving grace that God has already shown. The battle between my mind and my heart has been reconciled. I finally realized that frankly speaking, the Gospel doesn’t make any logical sense…salvation cannot be earned. My sins have been justified by Christ’s humble sacrifice and through God’s amazing grace in giving to me what I did not deserve and what I could not even dare to dream for. Because of this gift, I now live for a hope that is eternal and unswerving and to love and serve the almighty and everlasting God.
Soli Deo gloria.